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These songs were all written between the years 1994-1998
and recorded between 1998 and 2000. They were not originally intended to be a collection of songs. Each one was
written to help me cope with a series of extremely challenging experiences I was going through at that period in my life.
I was dealing simultaneously with serious health problems and multiple joint replacement surgeries that ultimately forced
me to be unable to play guitar and serious repercusions from Autism that my only son began to experience as he approached
adulthood. Music and songwriting gave me a way to cope with life and remember to keep focused on the spiritual perspective
of the things I was experiencing.
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I was performing regularly during this time and often played original
songs in my performances. Friends encouraged me to record some of my songs. I had originally intended to record many
more songs, but in 2000 my life completely fell apart as I had hand surgery that made it impossible for me to continue
to play guitar and simultaneoulsy lost the legal right to be involved in my son's life, lost my home and lost my relationship
with the man I had considered my best friend, under tragic circumstances. |
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The recording project was put on hold as I struggled to survive
and make sense of my life. My relationship with my Guru was the only thing that kept me alive at this time. Struggling
to let go of the dual identites of "mother" and "musician" I went into seclusion for several months and
then decided to return to college and focus my teaching career. I ended up getting both a Masters Degree and a
Doctorate in Education and then went on to work with troubled youth, using music, drama and meditation with them, before
I ultimately became unable to work full time. The one thing that kept me going was my faith in my guru and that some
day it would all make sense.
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During
the last 8 years the master of this recording has been stored in my closet. In a moment of inspiration I gave a copy
of it to a fellow disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda and he was inspired by it and believed that others might find some
inspiration and hope in these songs as well. He encouraged me to revive the project. It is to him that I owe all
the credit for daring to bring this recording into being. I pray he is right, that others may find some inspiration
from it.
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